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02 February 2010 @ 07:31 pm
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Jaa ne~
~Jin's TurtleBoy Kazu-chan~


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Jin's TurtleBoy ~ Kazuちゃん
30 December 2009 @ 12:20 am
Fanfiction list

I decided to make a fic list. ^^ The pairing is Akame (Akanishi Jin+Kamenashi Kazuya from KAT-TUN) in every fic. 


Warning:  - not every fic is betaed. Which is, I wrote it to the actual post. My beta is
[info]blue_eyes1THANK YOU!!! ^o^
                 - all fics are boys love, meaning loving relationship between two men. If it offends you, dont read.
                 - some fanfiction contains adults themes. Most of the fic contains kissing.


★Ungoing Multichapters★

Unable to respond
Summary: Kame is closed in his own world… he can feel he can hear, but can’t respond. Will Jin’s love give him the light to live on? (angst, romance, pg for now)
CHAPTER 1 //CHAPTER 2 //CHAPTER 3 //CHAPTER 4 //CHAPTER 5 //CHAPTER 6 //CHAPTER 7 //CHAPTER 8 //CHAPTER 9 //CHAPTER 10 //CHAPTER 11// CHAPTER 12 // CHAPTER 13//CHAPTER 14//CHAPTER 15//CHAPTER 16

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Sweet Morning
summary: Jin is acting weird and Kazuya tries his best to resist. But why exactly does Jin behave the way he does? Will Jin succeed in his plan? Find out. ^^ (humor, romance, nc-17)
CHAPTER 1// CHAPTER 2//CHAPTER 3
Survival Camp
Summary: KAT-TUN is sent to a survival camp with lots of adventure, due to the fact of the fans complains that they don’t see much member ai. Is that really like that? Does KAT-TUN really needs this camp to deepen their bond or is it deep enough without it? (romance, humor, pg 15)
CHAPTER 1 // CHAPTER 2//CHAPTER 3
Game lost, Fate changed
Summary: Jin and Kame are in love with each other but living in denial. Koki plays a game with Ueda and they bet. After Koki loses the bet, the others join in the punishment game which is to go to Ueda's uge house and help gardening. But Kame and Jin doesn't know that their fate will change by accepting the work to help. (romance, humour, slight angst)
CHAPTER 1 //CHAPTER 2//CHAPTER 3


★ANAN series★

Jin, what are you doing in Anan??
Summary: Kame's reaction when he sees the porn photoshoot of Jin in Anan (romance, pg)
Jin, what are you doing in Anan?? PART II
Summary: Jin gets his punishment. (romance, pg)
Akame in Anan??
Summary: Koki surfes in internet and finds the fake akame pictures. How will Akame react when he shows them? (romance, pg)


★One-shots★

Feelings in ice 
Summary: Jin thinking back of the times when Kazuya was still his (angst, pg)
Jin’s seconds~ 00’00’16
summary: Kazuya singing his solo and Jin watches it getting excited in you-know-what way ;D (romance, humor, pg)
Jin BD fanfic: The best present
summary: Jin is grieving because he is in love with Kazuya. Kazuya wants to give Jin a special present. What will it be? (angst, romance, pg-15)
An Unforgottable Halloween
summary: Jin doesnt want his previous costume for halloween. He thinks of something other and it changes the halloween into a scary one. (romance, humour, pg) 
If only I could play that role
summary: Jin's thoughts on Nobuta wo produce, wat if he had played Akira (angst, romance, pg)
Kame's Bad Haircut  
Summary: Kame gets a bad haircut and Jin comforts him (romance, humor, pg)
Disneyland
summary: Kame's thougts about Disneyland (romance, pg)
Completely busted
Summary: Kame and Jin hid their relationship well for years, until a fateful concert MC. What caused them to be found out? (romance, pg)

★Drabbles★

Just one trigger can start a war I
Summary: Jin and Koki are fighting over a chocolate and Kame observes them. (romance, humor, pg)
Just one trigger can start a war II
Summary: This is Kazuya’s revenge for being treatened like a food.(romance, humor, pg)
Just one trigger can start a war III
Summary: The sequel to the previous drabbles. This time it is all smutty and fluffy~ ^^ A happy 2 minutes drabble ne~(romance, humor, pg)


★Ongoing multichapter fanfics that I write with other people★

With [info]fluffyyaoi
At the beginning
 CHAPTER 1//CHAPTER 2//CHAPTER 3//CHAPTER 4  
(This fic is dropped, will never be complete, sorry)


If I linked something wrong please tell me. ^^ Thanks.
Actually I have 2 notebooks full of Akame fanfictions. I am going to type them all but it needs time.
Thank you very much for those who read and those who comment my fictions. Comments make me happy~ <3

Oh, and I like to write fanfic with people together. If you want to write a fanfic with me, please tell me I would be glad~
 
 
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Jin's TurtleBoy ~ Kazuちゃん
09 December 2009 @ 12:24 am
Today started like hell. I wasnt feeling well yesterday and i saw the future in black colours, all faith gone. (It returned lol) I saw someone commented that i am an optimistic person. It made me surprised ^^;; I am not :(
So first.... I was cold like hell (like always but nevermind ^^;) and then i went out one hour earlier... and i noticed it on the train =___= i was like: DAMNHELL!!
Then my phone is stupid again, it doesnt let me play with it, plus it says teh same as explorer "sorry couldnt send the message, couldnt connect the server" Why am i this unlucky with phones??? -____-

actually a really funny thing happened ^^;;
I was down and depressed and feeling not too well, me and my partner were waiting in the metro station. Then I hear boys shout: "Akanishi da!!!" (Akanishi there!)
I was like: WHAT? There is NO freaking way Jin could be in THAT metro station in the morning. I looked at the guys, .....they were looking at me.
They thought I am Akanishi. ^^; ARGHH LOL
well... I have the same hairstyle (why? i dont have money to cut it ^^;; ) i have the same hat (i brought it without knowing it), I was wearing coat which he has similar (coinscidence) and I was looking down and yeah they couldnt see my face, so they thought I am Jin ^^;;
Zannen deshita, I am not. LOL

I went to Roppongi, ah i love illumination!
and now i have to run ^^;; gomen


byee

SIII you
~Kazuちゃん~
 
 
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Jin's TurtleBoy ~ Kazuちゃん
07 December 2009 @ 09:41 pm
It is the time to update i think.

So yooo minna, hisashiburi

first of all...i dont see the future. I believe what i am doing here will succeed but maybe time and money will be the one that after achieving everything else, it will stop us. It wont ne? No it wont. I wont let it happen >__<
today i was thinking about the future and started to consider what all can happen, but i realized Kamechan was right "Saki no koto dorehodo ni kangaeteitemo hontou no koto nante darenimo shiranai" (No matter how much you are thinking about the future, the truths noone knows"
So i decided, I live and give my best. I live every day as if it was the last. I know what i am doing here is risky and it is not a game, my life depends on it, my future. But i am determined.
Some people look up at me because of it, but seriously I am not worth looking up at.
Maybe the ones who laughs and say "arent u stupid? know ur limits" has right, but I already decided not to give up and give my everything into what i do.
Maa... I am a stubborn person and what i want to do, I do until the end (what i dont want to do i wont do even if i must ahahhaha....too...immature? will it couse my downfall? ^^; )


About Akanishi; I am sorry everyone who i made sad with my post. And no, I dont hate Jin. I could never hate him, I just dont really like him. It is not the same as hate. I could never harm him or anything and lately I feel sorry for him.
I hope he will realize he should be more grateful to his surrounding. He is not a bad guy, so I am sure that one day he will realize everything. And I have faith in him that it wont be too late.
I was just pissed at him, I think i calmed down a little. I still hate his lying btw.
I want to send everyone who wanted to cheer me up and who sent me the Backstage of KAT-TUN.
ARIGATOU!! <3
maybe i am too sentimental and I know we dont know each other personally, but every comment and every word you give me are my strength.
Lol i am talking as if I were an idol. No i am not and never will be and not a big deal at all ^^;;

Random: SAMURAI HIGHSCHOOL and Fukuyama Masaharu are love!! <3 totally.
random #2: Does anyone play Happy aquarium on facebook? I want to have a turtle but i dont have 25 pearl and i see someone has like 10 green turtle in 1 aquarium. How? いったいどうやって?!O_O

Tomorrow there will be a seminar. ^^; がんばるぞー!オー

 About a little Akame tho i cant really write about them as long as I am not pleased with Jin ^^;; So, just that, I heard (or read somewhere?) that Jin doesnt really like Fukuyama Masaharu. (and the fact he doesnt like Tegoshi is true).
Ahahah hooooow accidental he only dislikes the ones being close to kame xD

LOL my host father is watching Tokyo dogs (Mizushima Hiro+Oguri Shun drama) and Shun's phone is vibrating in every 5 minutes. I always think that is mine xD



Take care minna ne

SIII・・・ you
~Kazuちゃん~
 
 
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Current Mood: idontknow
 
 
Jin's TurtleBoy ~ Kazuちゃん
06 December 2009 @ 01:57 pm
Yoo~~~

Today is (beside being Santa Claus day) is the Birthday of my veeeeery precious someone ^o^

HAPPY BIRTHDAY [info]tirildahl !!


誕生日おめでとう!

"Happy Birthday to you~~~
Happy Birthday to you~~~ Happy Birthday dear Jinjin,
Happy Birthday to you~~~"
*singing*

Hope you will have a wonderful day and that you will actually see this post. Oh and we will celebrate...oneday LOL no no really, (if you dont comment on it i will kick your ass, thankyou. muhahaha)

So, be brave, DONT drink too much, dont feel depressed and have a wonderful year!! (and you cant get rid of me in this year either, so face it. >D)



Your cake~

 
 
 
 
Jin's TurtleBoy ~ Kazuちゃん
30 November 2009 @ 05:31 pm
sorry that i didnt update for long. I wont talk much now either, I just wanted to say this: CONGRATULATION KAME!!
YOU deserve to be famous, you do everything to your goal and work hard. This is respectful. Ganbatte on the role of the charakter, I am sure you will capture him good. (And loooool Kame and Tegoshi in one work together again!! >) the two girly fairys of JE...oops fairy is Ueda, gomen Tacchan xDDD)
And btw Kamechan, you deserve MUCH more better than you liar boyfriend.
I started to really dislike Jin so i wont talk about him for a while.
He is liar, he is damn selfish and just doesnt care how he hurts his loved ones with what he is saying and how he is acting. And i start to dont care that he has reason. Has he? He has none.
If he is that moody he is fine to quit, but jin...then do it WITHOUT hurting the ones who you can pretty much be grateful to. What do u think because of who are you THIS famous?? yourself? heh... If you would make this alone you would be half this famous if all. with this attitude? heh... noway man, so shut up.
Okay and I shut up too.

Again... おめでとう亀ちゃん!!



what happened with me? I live my life, I go pretty often to karaoke. It was fun, I switched the point giving thing on. I wanted to laugh how less points i will get.
I sang Kizuna, 70 points, tho it said i was never offkey. Then i realized why, it doesnt only check if you are offkey or not, it checks if you vibrate ur voice and pitch your voice the same way as the real singer or not.
I was like: uhhh fuck u xD
so.... basically, i have to mimic the singer totally to get high scores. I tried, it didnt really work but then i was like: i WONT give up.
I sang 1582 not with my usual voice and pretty much in a girly way (low voice, but yeah). It was damn tiring ^^;;;; i thought i will get like 30 or less points. Then i was like o__O I got 95.
i dunno why my voice is totally not that great at all. bikkurishita!

Yesterday I went to Harajuku and brought some clothes for winter.
And Kame's necklace... and 5 line under it showed Jin has the same necklace just another colour.
Jin, could you leave Kame in peace?? thankyou. (sorry for my mood ^^;; )

Today I have to go to my fav club, but it will be sad, I just go coz my Korean friend will leave Japan for forever and it is the last time we can meet T___T



Ok I go now, take care ne


SIIII you
~Kazuちゃん~
 
 
Current Location: Japan
Current Mood: annoyed
 
 
Jin's TurtleBoy ~ Kazuちゃん
29 November 2009 @ 09:54 pm

Happy Birthday Taguchi Junnosuke!
誕生日おめでとう!^^


 
 
Current Location: Japan
Current Mood: pissed off
 
 
Jin's TurtleBoy ~ Kazuちゃん
24 November 2009 @ 01:22 am

Okay man... this is crazy...
I read in [info]maishampoo 's lj that Jin wrote a song for his friend's wedding and today he sang it with Pi in Pi's solocon....
The song is there, visit her journal ^^

The first thought: it sounds like Kame's Aishiteiru kara!! O__O

I couldnt understand much of the lyric coz i dont really hear it coz of the quality, but what I could... man... this is answersong too.... or am I too crazy?

Here the lyrics, decide yourself :)

(Aishiteiru kara: music and lyric by Kamenashi Kazuya,
Eternal: music and lyric by Akanishi Jin)


Kame: tatoeba moshi kono yoru
boku wa kimi wo ushinattatoshitemo
wasurenaiiyo boku wa kimi wo aishiteiru kara
(for exapmle, if I was to lose you tonight
i wont forget you because I love you)
Hatenaku tsuzuku michino
nakani kimi wa nani wo omouno
wasurenaide sono kokorono
soba ni sotto isasete
(On this road that continues eternally
what are you thinking of?
dont forget, let me stay beside your heart)

Jin: tatoeba itsuka kono sekai de umarekawattemo
bokura wa sorezore onaji you ni deai
onaji you ni anata wo aisu deshou?
(for example if i was ever be born again to this world
we would still meet the same way and
i would still love you the same, right?)
anata to tomo ni ikiteru
suteki no egao de
mune hatte te wo tsunaide
sonna mirai wo matteru
(Living together with you
in a beautiful smile
being proud, hands joined
I wait for that kind of future)

Kame: Warai goe toka kanashii kao mo
takusan mite kitakedo
hajimete miru sono sugata wa
boku wo tomadowaseta
(Laughter and sad voices too
I saw a lot of them
but you stole me at the first time i saw you

Jin: anata ga iru (???)tada soredake de ureshikte atatakakute
yasashiku nareru boku mo mirai mo terashiteru
(Only that you are here (???)
it makes me happy it makes me warm
i become kind
you light me and the future up too)
fusakete, kenkashite, wakachiai kono koi
kazoekirenai hodo no omoi de
korekara no koto ni egaku no
(joking around, fighthing, but make up again,
our love is like this
in the countless memories
I imagine what will happen afterwards)


At the ?? parts I am not sure, i couldnt hear it perfectly but hey... I got shocked.... someone full lyric please? ^^;;;
Is it my imagination or are they really like answers? And the fighting but make up, this is our love is so akame....well, the only difference is that Aishiterukara is a little sad song, while Eternal is a happy song. But both of them are speaking about really stong love.

What do you think?

 
 
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Jin's TurtleBoy ~ Kazuちゃん
24 November 2009 @ 12:00 am
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ys2NF6U5mM0&feature=related

is it a turtle? o__O

xDDD
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Jin's TurtleBoy ~ Kazuちゃん

Minasan konbanwa~!

Hisashiburiiii~


sorry for not updating (I wrote fics at least lol)
You ask what all happened? Many things... ^^;
and you are free to laugh.
Ok, so... I dropped my phone into the toilet and when i managed to rescue it was too late...
I brought it to the shop coz it didnt work...
What did they say? "Dont worry it can be mend, it will cost about hmmm..... 35 000 yen."
me: O________O WHAT??
(the phone itself was 5000 yen btw)
I was like: ah okay man, no. I will buy another. do u have prepaid here?
So yeah I bought another. It was around 7000 yen with CD software, usb cable, earphones and you can watch TV on it. I think it is pretty cheap. I am in love with it.
When you push varous buttons it is like piano.
1 do
2 re
3 mi
4 fa
5 so
6 la
7 ti
8 do
xDDDDDDDDDDDD So I started to write random and playing Kizuna on it.
So, my cellphone~
this:

I love it~~~ <3


About Akanishi. This man pisses me off. Girlfriend...LOOOL ooof course. I just dont know why he is always lying. Not only about this, about everything... okay, almost everything. Ok this is interview and he says what he has to or even doesnt say just someone writes it and thats it, but...
Its ok he wont tell who he really is but anyway, it just pissing me off.
I dont believe his words, none of it. And will never, no matter what he is saying.
*pissed*

about Akame, lol what the HELL are you doing in Yokohama? xDDDD Arent you get sleepy? Seriously.
But damn... they look so happy lately. Both of them. And really, Kame's ring is just so suspicious. "I bought it" my ass... xDDD
I dont know how about you but as for me, I dont buy something that is totally not my style and taste.
Kaaamechan, dont be such a liar as your boyfriend!
but seriously it is quite entertaining how they hide it and is still obvious.
Even not fans realize it.
Like in karaoke my friends after singing Care and 1582
"why are the lyrics almost the same??" (they were Japanese btw)
me: eheheeh xDDD guess.
Akame is entertaining and at least Kame is not that liar, he always says "suki na hito" or "aite" when speaking about his love. And as for Jin, he keeps saying kanojo for maaany years now. LOL Jin. If it is true then you have a stabile relationship for almost like...5 years with a girl? bullllllshit xD
if u live in denial, live. But do it more subtle please...
Some evidences... lol
Jin's story of why Hayato was not in the movie is the same as he said in the radio with Junno when he got back from la: the snow was falling when i went... and...there stood Kamenashi ...
Junno: O__O Kamenashi?? why?
Jin: ... ^^;;; I dont know.
(yes jin yes, we know your idontknows - -)
then Jin was rude (how not surprising) to a random caller to the radio who was a boy and said he likes Kame and asked Jin to hand Kame the phone and Jin was like: noway.
poor guy.... and Jin cant behave coz why should he and when the guy tried to joke and speak him into gie Kame to phone he was like: No. and thats it.
And hang up......
and since it was live in radio... Je couldnt cut it.
the result? Jin is the only one who doesnt host a radio show out of kattun XDDD
suuuspicious.

Ok I shut up lol

Byebyeeee
Take care

SIII you
~Kazuちゃん~

 
 
Current Location: Japan ☆日本
Current Mood: cold
 
 
Jin's TurtleBoy ~ Kazuちゃん
22 November 2009 @ 05:38 pm
Title: What is with those heart emojis?
pairing: Akame
rating: pg 14
genre: humor, romance
warning: unbetaed
Summary: Kame reads Jin's Vivi magazine interview. How will he react to the "emoji with my girlfriend" part?
AN: lol i wish Jin would stop saying gf every time when we all know its not true xDDD

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Jin's TurtleBoy ~ Kazuちゃん
19 November 2009 @ 01:22 am
konbanwa minasan!


Today is the day of my grandpa's 1 year death anniversary . T__T Rest in peace. Thank you for the comments I got. I wil lanswer all *hugs*

I tried not to be depressed today and i could manage it. Thanks for my wprking partner and friend <333 THANK YOU!! We worked today and had fun too! We went into a restaurant where you could eat as much as you wanted for 890 yen. Only for 3 days is this chance so we went (its in Ikebukuro)
We ate from 20:00 until 22:00 LOOOL
I usually dont eat much, I hate eating (maa, in Japan i eat a lot tho... ^^; ) but this..... we ate tooo much. ^^;;;;
But we always kept bringing food again and again. ^^; at the end? we couldnt eat it and we werent allowed to bring home what we left lol
I can just say: apple pizza is the best!! <3333
I was whining about wanting to eat gyoza (before we ate pizza).
Guess what. xDD when I arrived home, the dinner was waiting for me... it was gyoza!!!! XDDDDDDDD
Of course i couldnt eat it, it is still "grinning"at me from the table. ^^;

*laughs hard* This man.... he never fails to entertain me (ok just when he is ignoring and moody lol)
In Cartoon KAT-TUN: what is the song u listen to when you drive?
Maru, Junno, Jin and 3 guest.
Jin: yacchatta ^^;;;;;;; (i did it...ooops)
Everyone was like: What the FUCK is this?*
It was Black Eyed Pees Boom boom pow. (I hear it every time 3 or 4 times per night at the club "L" xDD)
At the mini screen Kame was soooo adorable, he smiled whenever they showed Jin and he laughed as he heard the song and man he actually SANG it!!! xDD (of course he couldnt know the camera reflects him) yeees, we know Kamechan, you are used to it, you drive a lot in your boyfriend'S carm what? xDDD
Not only Kame, I laughed every time too Jin was on screen.
AHAHAHAHAHHA Jin: .....???...eh.... okay... so... how do you make a tent stand?.... *hands on hips, thoughtful expression* (ROOOFL he is like a child!!!!)
And this hair???? You stole my hairstyle again :O
but ehh... i really realized.... 90% of my clothes are the same as Jin's ^^;;;;;;; nevermind. same clothes, same hairstyle (now Kame has the same hairstyle as me whe ni wash it lol)
ahahha I am Akame fusion *amused*


I am too lazy and tired to write more, jsut i can tell this: the tranalted Akame reports from [info]fanofken make me happy and make me believe 110% akame is real.
Just one of the few: concert mc kame said he and jin sang special happiness in the shower!! and koki said that kame ran embarassed into his stall!! guess what kame said: yeah, coz my shower went wrong and then i went to akanishi's but he had the shower on 48 celsius (Kame i dont think that it is possible!! xDD come up with something else LOL) and when i noticed Koki was there I went to his stall.
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOF course xDDD yeah... suuuuuuuure xDD
when Akanishi lies at least he does it better ^^;
and jin said he listens to Special happiness every night before sleep.
ROFL That song... the gayest sont ever (in my vocabulary it is positive), written by Kame and PROOVED KAme is gay (coz noone writes neko with letters if they refer to cat and not uke role)
xDDDDDDDDDD u like it, what Jin? Guess it was written for u and OMG that new pic in the magazin. Tell NOW u are not an uke! xD That expression!! maaaan!!

It became really cold suddenly.

Take care minna, dont catch cold!

SIII you
~Kazuちゃん~
 
 
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Jin's TurtleBoy ~ Kazuちゃん
Since I cant come tomorrow...and...I want to write this... I write it today.

Today is november 17. One year before... on that day I was in another city for my studies and hanging out with my friends. I had the urge to call my grandparents, I dont know why I had that really strong urge, but when I looked at the clock it was already after 11 pm so I decided I wont bother them...there is always next day.....
always?
2008.11.18... the worst day of my life so far.
It began as every other average day, I still remember I had kanji test that day. After that I met my friends and we hanged out. After it we went to one of my friend's house to watch drama. Proposal daisakusen. It is totally not my type of drama, but one thing made me think: if you could go back in time and change one thing in your life, what would it be? I didnt know at that time...that only after a few minutes... I will know the answer.
After a few minutes my phone rang. My parents... I picked up cheerfully to hear what? The worst news in my life.
father: where are you now?
me: at Pi's (we have rp circle and my rp friends Pi and Jin were there)
father: well....when will you.....be at home? Are you...in a good place?
me: ahahaha what? are you okay? i dont know when I will be at home but hey you want to say something?
at the background I heard my 5 years old brother say: grandpa died, grandpa died.
I started to shiver, oh God I still remember as if it was yesterday.
me: i hear what Mark is saying... is it...true?
I was so hoping my bro is just joking, but my father said: yes.... i am sorry...grandpa died this morning.
I almost fainted and started to cry. my friends were surprised but then they cried with me too. If it was not for them i would have fainted.
What was the thing i wanted to make again if i could turn back time? Call them. Call my grandfather at that moment... the day before at night...
I was living with him in one house, i loved him totally. i didnt have another grandfather, just him. He did everything for me, for us. He worked for us even in the age of 75... he loved us so much and always showed it.
He sacrificed his life for us...for me... His dream was to see me graduate, he was working for that...
My grandma told that the day before, that night... they were speaking about me.My grandma was always worried what will be with me... what did my grandpa say as his last words about me?
"I trust her. You will see, she will make it. She is strong and I believe in her."
God.... grandpa i am so sorry! Am i strong? Will I make it?
I wonder what he would do when he see me now. I stopped university for a while if not for forever, to build my own dream here in Japan...with risks, with hardships and with possibility it wont get fulfilled.
It is amazing how in one day everything can change...
One year before, i was crying in my friend's arm all night long...in my hometown, classes were awaiting me the next day and i went. I went because of him. He said i am strong? He said I can make it? I didnt skip school. No...he wouldnt be proud of me if i would. It was hard but i went.
Now? I am here, in Japan, met and can meet anytime with people i only dreamed of in my home country and thought they are unreachable, doing my own busines...
What would he say? Would he be angry that I stopped uni now? Would he say it is too risky, please stop it? Would he be sad? Or would he say: I trust her.
I feel guilty sometimes... do i betray all of his hard for with stopping uni for a while (and maybe for forever).

Grandpa, wherever you are... forgive me...I love you. I believe you are watching me from above...you are guiding my steps now too as you did all in your life. That you are still next to me...next to us.
I believe you made me meet those people I always wanted to meet with.
Am I doing the right thing? Are you proud of me?
"If I pass away, if I die, dont cry." you always said laughing.
I cant not cry. Is it weakness? I cry now. And I am not ashamed about it.

Meeting and partings come in a set I know, but it is still hard.
But I wont give up grandpa, I wont.
November 17...one year before it was the last day of you on this Earth.
I miss you. Please, keep watching me from above and please rest in peace. I love you for forever and will never forget you.

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me


REST IN PEACE

 
 
Current Location: Japan
Current Mood: sad and nostalgic
 
 
Jin's TurtleBoy ~ Kazuちゃん
15 November 2009 @ 02:10 am
Title: Thoughts
pairing: Akame (Kame+Jin)
rating: pg-14
genre: romance
summary: Jin's thoughts on his life, on how it was and how it is now.
warning: unbetaed.

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Jin's TurtleBoy ~ Kazuちゃん

「悩み出したらEndlessly        "I pour out my problems Endlessly
どうでいいいんだ別に      I dont care, nothing matters, whatever 
好きで悩んだ訳じゃないし         I am not complaining coz i actually like it
ただそれがイラだってる原困    but it is the cause that keeps me stressed
逃げ場所もなく                           there is no place to run
心ふさぎたくなる                         my heart turns like "what the hell"
誰も気づかず通り過ぎる           noone notices just passing by
でも時計が回る」                        but the clock keeps tickling"
(Lyric: NewS - Smile maker)


Minasan konbanwa~!
 


I was on a little hiatus, well kinda. Anyone noticed? ^^; I was really busy these days, I had business seminar to attend and I slept in my friends house so i couldnt come to PC.

The seminar was in Roppongi hills. I love roppongi so much, it is so beautiful. I will show you, I took picture.
Here~



If someone saw Sailor Moon, that thing resembles to crystal palace ne?
 it changed colours!
I wanted to photo the blue one, but well ^^;;..... we didnt have that much time, next time. lol


After the seminar there was dinner with a lot ot delicious food. I am not a fan of food, but that was very delicious! I ate a lot ^^;

I hardly have voice, it starts to go away ^^; Throat problems... Nevermind lol

I was really suprised when i came online and saw that I got a lot of comments to my latest fic. o.o To that crap??? xD
LOL
thank you guys! I love you all!

I am so sleepy, so veeery sleepy and it is just 19:17... I dont know how I can party tomorrow like this, but arghh I already promised to a lot of friend. Ganbaru zo!
Uhh I just remembered today is cartoon KAT-TUN. Uhhh I cant sleep then ^^;;;;;
I just cant skip it, it is so damn funny with all those celebrities. Why is Odrey not there? Kasugaaaa xDDD TOUS!
lol


About mr Baka-san...... *shakes head* Idiot.......but I still believe in you.

About KAT-TUN.... and ... Jin.
It is NOT fair LOOOOOOOOOL
why is my life ALWAYS connected with that baka???
Just imagine... I went to family markt with my partner. WE sat down. 2 girls sat down and started to talk about their friend(?) who will be in a movie soon.
Me (to my partner): Are those girls speaking about jin???
my partner: u are sick...
girls (to each other): lol no, he is in Johnnys.
my partner: ..... o__O u r right.
and nee i swear i heard the word gay not only once, (I am NOT sure so dont take it as 100%. They sat far and i am not sure i understood them right. What is sure they were talking about JE.)
If i heard right they said something like that: "oh and another guy knows this too, recently he was having musical. And the guy was like: yaaada~
(in privat not in the musical)
But wait.... musical recently... and the yaaada is so girly... could they talk about kame???
(lol so i heard the gay word regarding the two guys they talked about?? but i tell u again i am NOT sure they said that word or what exactly they were talking.)) Then mentioned Tackey later too I heard the name clearly. Later we went to Roppongi. We got someone's namecard... what do u think the girls name was? it consisted this kanji: 仁 (jin)
I was like: o_____O .... -________-
then we got lost ^^;; (not first) I saw a big sign at an arrow. The sign: AJ
^^;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;
(I forgot to mention that when I went to Korea, i wrote that i got the "J" when we went, but i forgot to write I got "A" when we returned ^^;; So it is AJ too.
LOOOOL Jin, better be nice to me *laughs*
it IS fate.
(poor me lol)
I thought it is the end. But later I was waiting for my friend to pick me up at Roppongi station. Two girls pass by, what are they talking about? Johnny's......... @_@
xDDDDDDDD
Isnt it funny? And it happens frequently. My partner was laughing and saying: why is it where u are there is always something JE related?
Its ok, but WHY JIN??? xDDDDDDDDDDD
(no, i dont hate nor dislike him)
Oh, but Bandage, I wont watch. Nor listening to the CD.

Ahhh I cant wait to watch Kame's 1582 DVD quality in youtube >)

Speaking about youtube, today's clips is about our totally not shy guys. >D
douzo~
LOL! I thought Kame was not always girly, but this prove me he was. xD Young or recent Kame, one thing doesnt change >) (and I am evil again ahh xD) Take care!

SIII・・・ you
~Kazuちゃん~
 
 
Current Location: Japan ☆日本
Current Mood: tired
Current Music: NewS - Smile maker
 
 
Jin's TurtleBoy ~ Kazuちゃん
08 November 2009 @ 06:37 pm
Title: 11th Anniversary
pairing: Akame
rating: pg 15
genre: romance, fluff
warning: unbetaed
summary: How does Jin want to celebrate their anniversary? Will Kazuya agree to it?
AN: Please bear with me if it is a crap. I didnt sleep last night and when I arrived home I only slept 2 hours. So I am dead =_=
But I wanted to write AK anniversary fic at its day. But I dont think it makes much sense ^^;
Anyway, enjoy. Comments are love.


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Current Location: Japan
Current Mood: sleepy
Current Music: TV in the background...
 
 
Jin's TurtleBoy ~ Kazuちゃん
08 November 2009 @ 04:17 pm
「はしゃぎまわるnekoのように            "you have fun, like a neko
僕の心の中にそっといつもそばにいるから             in my heart, softly you are always next to me
繰り返すことのない失敗なんて忘れてさ                forget the mistakes we wont repeat again 
二人で行こうよ夢のなかへ」                                    lets go together to the dream"



Konnichiwa minna~! ^o^

 Ok, first of all WHATTHEFUCK. I dont think you know about it and now thatI searched for it I couldnt find it, so I think the one who put it up got sued already or I dont know... This morning/dawn my Japanese friend who I went karaoke with searched the web on news. She was like: EHH???? Akanishi did what??
And I was like: ???
The rumour shit said Jin might be arrested soon, coz he went to a Halloween party to a club with Koki and they are suspected to use drugs. Also the rumour mentioned that they had been tracked all night and the ones who tracked them found no drug, none of them used it, and they may not be sure, they said that oh, it might be another rapper not Tanaka (wtf). But MAYBE Akanishi will use drug someday or wtf and thats why _maybe_ Akanishi will get arrested.
I laughed so hard at this! Akanishi spent the Halloween party with Kame in a club LOL (at least that what people says). And LOL "maybe"?? xDD Are they stupid? It was a really weak promotion for Bandage and BtR DVD, so I think JE decided to delete it. I wonder with what they come up next. Wait, I will predict. The next one will be Junno rumour, than Jin again and I am sure the rumour will be that he scandaleously dated his co star in Bandage (which he doesnt)
Rumours never fail to amuse me.

Btw, this friend worked in a ramen shop or I dont know and said that Akanishi often came there, but he is such a baka, there were times he wanted food for takeaway and he forgot to bring it home XD
Also she said that Tegoshi was there often, but Tego and Jin sat at the opposite side of the restaurant, they seem to hate each other. xDD (not that we didnt know it lol)
And she said that Yamapi and Jin ar egood friends. And that she heard (she is not a KAT-TUN fan, only hears rumours and believes it as 90% of Japanese people) that Kame and Jin doesnt go along well too. Then I told her how well they come along and she was shocked. I told her about the pinky rings and the article and she said that really, rings noone does if its pair. So Akame you are doomed xD

Oh and Kame IS gay. I was singing special happiness and the girl got shocked and really surprised. I was like: hm??
Well she said, whoever wrote this song is gay for sure. I asked why.
She explained. In the lyric (and its the official lyric the karaoke has) there is a part which means obviously that the one who wrote it is gay (or at least very bi). Ususally you write everything with Japanese letters.
There is this line: hashagimawaru neko no you ni.
Kame wrote it like this. はしゃぎまわるnekoのように
You may ask: and?
Here is the explanation. When there is the word neko in a song, you always write it (have to write it, if you refer to the animal) with kanji: 猫
If you dont, this word means same-sex love. Neko is the word for uke in Japanese, it refers to the "girl" in the same-sex relationship if it is written like that and not with kanji. If I understood right, in every case.
And the song is written by K2, which I am sure it is Kamenashi Kazuya since it was his penname for long.

Another proof of Akame. I was singing 1582 and the girl was like: o__O it is so girly lyric! Is it for Akanishi-kun?
me: lol I dont know, Kame said he didnt write it but i dont believe it.
then I sang Care. The girl: Eh? Why the lyrics are almost the same?? Is it an answer song to the other one?? It looks like that.
Then I said: yes, I guess so, Care is rumoured to be written for Kame.
Then I sang Kizuna and told the girl it is rumoured to be written by Jin, but if its true or not i dont know, i only know that when Jin sang this song (in Dreamboys) he started to cry.
the girl was like: o__O ok, they are definitely together. (And she didnt tell me Jin brought girls to the ramen shop, she told me Tegoshi did, i think she would have tell if Jin too. She just saw Jin with Yamapi.)
It looks like that Japanese people dont do this just out of joke and fanservice. If they do fanservice it is obviously noticable with actions (like Koki and Kame do).
There was not only that girl with me on karaoke, there was a boy too and he was like: ehh? o.o too.
It is weird what Akame does in the eyes of a boy ^^;

I slept hmmm... 2 hours? xDD
Yes, I am sleepy. Very much.

about Kame's gold ring: why he changed his style? xD Coz he realized he is a girl? >)




 HAPPY 11th ANNIVERSARY AKAME!!!!!!! ^o^
 11 years... very long time. I hope whatever the fate bring into your way you wont forget what is really important and you bond will never break! What you have is something special and only a few people in the world can have it.
Live long and never let the other walk down on the hardships of life alone!


LOL the camera was not quick enough xDD JIIN, you jealous possessive bastard!! xD What the hell?
*laughs*
did u notice it? ;)
Dorks!! Whats with those kisses? xD Be happy forever! We are next to you and supporting you whatever you go through!





Ok, I go now~


Take care minna!
SIII・・・ you
~Kazuちゃん~

 
 
Current Location: Japan ☆日本
Current Mood: happy
Current Music: Special Happiness - Kame&Junno
 
 
Jin's TurtleBoy ~ Kazuちゃん
07 November 2009 @ 06:56 pm
Title: Happy birthday Koki
pairing: Akame
Main charakter: Koki
Summary: Koki's party with friends.
warning: still unbetaed
AN: This is crap ^^;;
I just felt to write something for Koki but i doidnt really know what. So this turned out...

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Current Location: Japan
Current Mood: content
Current Music: Tanaka Koki- I dont miss u
 
 
Jin's TurtleBoy ~ Kazuちゃん
07 November 2009 @ 03:49 pm
「If you open your eyesあきらめないで   "If you open your eyes dont give up
Your dreams come trueそらさないで             your dreams come true dont be afraid
Its in you heart信じてみよう                           its in your heart, lets believe in it 
Just open your eyes」                                    just open your eyes"




Minasan hisashiburi~~~!
(well not that much but anyway ^o^;)

Since when didnt I write? Uhh.... I dont really know what to write, so many things happened in these few days. Mostly I had been busy with work. But I just couldnt skip going to my favorite club. And it was worth it!! I met someone who is really nice and we talked a lot even after the club. He said he plays baseball for long and he is kakkoii and really smart. Then I asked him: do you like music? And he said that he likes it veeery much. (Me too! xD)
So, we agreed to go to all-night karaoke today xD (LOL i wont sleep again)
I asked him what he is singing when he goes to karaoke. He: NewS!
>DDD
perfect.
LOL

the thing i dont really do lately: sleeping ^^; Yes I know, it is not healthy, but I dont have time. When I go out I cant come back ,Saitama is far from Tokyo. When I dont go out...well............. i am sitting in front of PC ^^;;;; (If I am sleepy and now that i dont feel so well, deserves me right ^^; )

There are problems again and stress, but well, I still think that everything will be allright. We didnt do things that far to just stop it or anything. And today is weekend, free day but I will start working soon. ^^v
(no I am not like Kame XDDD uso :P)

I am so baka i cant remember what all happened..incredible, maybe i really should sleep more ^^;

about Kame: you are SOOO hentai man! Someone said Chin=Jin. LOL no its not, and Kame didnt say the wrong word, it is "chin chips" (Microwave chips). That he laughed at thatword... No comment turtle XDD You are soooooo perverted OMG and did u see? When the comedian said some dirty joke, only Kame and Ueda understood (the two gay guys lol).
I laughed my ass off of that Cartoon KAT-TUN. Cooking really suits Kame and man, he does it as if he really just coocked in his whole life. He is practiced in it (sorry for him, cooking for jin cant be that easy ^^;)And how the comedian guys looked like: wtf, I am sureall of them thought: how can a guy know so much??
And it was cute how Yanagihara and Kame started to talk about how to make food and such (well yeah Yanagihara was the only female there (beside our turtle proncess xDD)
About Kame's gold ring.As someone pointed out....yes... ROFL it IS really girly. (Jin, u didnt know what to do with your money again? XDD)

One thing that bothers me, but shou ga nai...I read that Kame and Ueda being spotted at Omotesando on oct 30. And when did I go there? Oct 31. ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHH >_______<
my "luck"........

I think I caught a cold. =_=

Today's clip~Akamee


Dear Akakame couple...You are still on-stage+the camera is on... oh sorry, the FAN camera is on >)
So u cant know it. MUHAHAHHA
Good interaction. And MAru went away quickly ahahahahahha
Taguchi whispers: it was a good job Jin, u managed not to space out coz of Kamenashi in the previous half hour.
*Kame comes there thinking: Taguchi away from whats mine!*
*Taguchi: ooops.....angry wife, goes away*
Kame: so Jin, see you after the concert? *really close, hand touching)
Jin: ah hell yeah!!
*Kame smiles like hell*

 I am wondering, should I write a Koki Bday fic or not? Hmmm............................................... :/



Now I go, take care minna!



SIII・・・ you
~Kazuちゃん~

 
 
Current Location: Japan ☆日本
Current Mood: thoughtful
Current Music: NewS: Open your eyes
 
 
Jin's TurtleBoy ~ Kazuちゃん
06 November 2009 @ 04:33 pm

I totally dont have time to update, sorry, but i am already a day late and I didnt want to be more late, so here it is

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TANAKA KOUKI!!! ^o^

Tanjoubi omedetou!
Back then you changed my life, so I have to thank you for who I am today. Really,本当にい感謝するよ。ありがとうございます。
Be always healthy and dont let bad things get u down! Fight Joker!
*sing HBD song for you*


誕生日おめでとうcoolなrapper!!
 
 
 
Current Location: Japan
Current Mood: very sleepy